unfulfilled promise

It has been a year already when my jerk left me. I can still remember that night when he asked me to wait for him for a year. He told me that he needs to leave to prepare everything for our future. He told me that his prayers will all be answered if he will learn to sacrifice his greatest happiness, which is, ME.


A year passed and he did not return. I have expected that! I knew well that night that his promise was something meant to be broken. I thought I have accepted that fact already. I thought I was too strong already to accept that he’s happy with his family. But I was wrong!


This morning, I woke up carrying a heavy heart after remembering his unfulfilled promise. It is very painful. But I have no choice but to ignore the pain and pretend as if I am not hurt. Funny! People see me as a strong person who seems to have no problems. But they do not know that inside me, I am deeply hurt and broken.


I miss him! I still love him! Those are what I feel. BUT I have to learn the art of letting go. I have to teach myself to forget and let go of whatever feelings I have for him. Everything is not fair for me. He has broken his promise. He took me for granted. He fooled me. I should not love him!


I know it will take time before I could finally master the art of letting go. I know I will still take a long journey before I could forget him. I know forgiveness will always be a quest for me. Despite of these, I remain hopeful that I can stand victorious against the pains and hurts I am now feeling. I know I have a big GOD who will never cease guiding me. He will accompany me towards forgiveness. He will help me clean my heart from hatred.

To my jerk, I know you’re happy now given the fact that your greatest prayer was answered. Though you’ve hurt me, I still pray that the good Lord will continue to guide and bless you. Good luck to your journey in the so-called life.


That’s all for now. I have to pack and prepare my things. I’ll have a 3-day vacation in Baguio. It’s time for me to unwind after a tiring semester and a painful year.